I think I've only tried to court one person from the site aforementioned. The others, I've talked to for a while, but we kind of lost contact when we both stopped messaging each other.

I don't think my mind (nor body) wants to try my best on these apps/websites anymore. I don't even care if I meet someone new there, or if I might find "the one." Because I've lost hope for those things. I don't care anymore.

It's no big deal, I've just stopped caring for those services. That's okay, it's normal to lose faith in things. I've grown used to it.

One thing that bugs me is the fact that around 90% (or more) of the guys I know have been in relationships, in one way or another—even the unlikely ones. Which bothers me so much because I haven't even experienced a two-way romantic encounter before.

I keep asking myself, "There must be something wrong with me, that's why I've always been single." But, whenever I think I found my one pertinent flaw, I find it within someone else, and yet they've been in a relationship before.

Maybe I need to be overtly happy? Or change my circle of friends? Or get a premium app subscription? Or show off my dog in my pictures? Or slide into the DMs of random girls? Or get angry at the world and blame everyone?

Mayb—ah, no. Whatever.

I'm not against being alone, anyway. It was like this last year. I'm sure being alone is just my thing, and I just need to acclimate to it. 'Cause I'm sure I'll be going through next year just like this one.

Yeah, I'm lonely. But I guess I'm meant to be that way, at least for the time being (hopefully).

I'll be okay. I'll get used to it.

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Rumors Unmoved By the Wind

Dartegnian Velarde

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Rumors Unmoved By the Wind
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It's been a long time since I last fell in love, but that's okay. I didn't actually fall in love with anyone this year, if I'm going to be honest. And, with the year wrapping up next month, I doubt I'm going to fall in love with anyone come January 1st.

Still, it's okay, I've gotten used to it.

Recently, though, a friend has "gotten me out of my shell" and re-introduced me into dating apps. On one site, it seems like I'm barely trying. And on another, it seems like I'm trying too hard. I'm not sure if I should even believe in these things anymore because I have personally used this site for 2 years, and I've only made 2 friends from them.

I think I've only tried to court one person from the site aforementioned. The others, I've talked to for a while, but we kind of lost contact when we both stopped messaging each other.

I don't think my mind (nor body) wants to try my best on these apps/websites anymore. I don't even care if I meet someone new there, or if I might find "the one." Because I've lost hope for those things. I don't care anymore.

It's no big deal, I've just stopped caring for those services. That's okay, it's normal to lose faith in things. I've grown used to it.

One thing that bugs me is the fact that around 90% (or more) of the guys I know have been in relationships, in one way or another—even the unlikely ones. Which bothers me so much because I haven't even experienced a two-way romantic encounter before.

I keep asking myself, "There must be something wrong with me, that's why I've always been single." But, whenever I think I found my one pertinent flaw, I find it within someone else, and yet they've been in a relationship before.

Maybe I need to be overtly happy? Or change my circle of friends? Or get a premium app subscription? Or show off my dog in my pictures? Or slide into the DMs of random girls? Or get angry at the world and blame everyone?

Mayb—ah, no. Whatever.

I'm not against being alone, anyway. It was like this last year. I'm sure being alone is just my thing, and I just need to acclimate to it. 'Cause I'm sure I'll be going through next year just like this one.

Yeah, I'm lonely. But I guess I'm meant to be that way, at least for the time being (hopefully).

I'll be okay. I'll get used to it.